Vivian Lake Cosplay Stylez- Part 1

The fashion of the smart-ass, kick-ass, billionaire-heiress, psychic phoenix hunter who rides a Harley, my SPN fanfic creation… But in plus-size mode… HAHA! 😉

The Original Vivian Lake Look:

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Vivian Lake “Sexy Hunter” Look:

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(I was obviously skinnier in these pics of me wearing this dress… HAHA! 😉 SO NOW MY CLEAVAGE LOOKS EVEN MORE AWESOME!!!! 😉 <3 <3 <3 )

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(Need to decide between these two necklaces… Probably gonna go with the lace one, since I can make it looser than the latex one…)

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(Have to spray paint or color out the yellow lettering on the crossbow and also put the damn thing together, as it’s proving to want to be a pain in the ass right now… 😛 )

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(I do have the black base polish, I just don’t have it pictured, but the pic on the right is how I’m going to do my nails. 🙂 <3 )

 

 

 

Now for the incomplete outfits…

 

Vivian Lake “Casual Phoenix”:

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All about that bass… 😉 <3 <3 <3

 

 

 

Vivian Lake “Elegant Sexy Phoenix”:

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Jensen’s jaw is gonna hit that floor HARD… 😉 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 Though I haven’t gotten this in the mail yet to try it on… Hoping it fits PERFECTLY and continues to fit perfectly as I lose this weight… 😉 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

 

 

 

Vivian Lake Misc. Items:

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Waiting on these two to come in the mail as well to see how they fit… <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

 

 

 

Vivian Lake Fun Time Photoshoot:

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CaptureYour365: April 2016

I took up the daily photography challenge CaptureYour365 for the duration of 2016. Each day, you take a picture based off a prompt that you are given.

I have to warn you, some of these pictures weren’t taken on the days that they are next to, but they ARE taken according to their prompt. I was just slack a lot of last month because of emotional fall-out STILL due to the break-up, so fell behind only a little and had to play catch up a bit.

So, without further ado, here is April’s CY365! Check out the photos on my Instagram for the descriptions and hashtags! <3 <3 <3 <3

 

  1. Reward
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  2. Shallow
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  3. In My Hands/Self Portrait
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  4. Homemade
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  5. Bread
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  6. Precious
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  7. Currently loving…
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  8. Where I Stand
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  9. Pen and Paper
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  10. Magenta
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  11. Layers
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  12. Distant
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  13. Pocket-Sized
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  14. Vibrant
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  15. A Bunch
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  16. On the Side
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  17. Exposure
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  18. Go Wide
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  19. F/I.4
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  20. Simple
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  21. Dark and Moody
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  22. Light and Bright
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  23. Magnify
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  24. Rule of Thirds
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  25. Standing
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  26. Retro
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  27. Well-Loved
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  28. Looking Down
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  29. On My Table
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  30. Curly
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And that’s April! Working on May right now, of course! 😉 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Geek Girls x Bloggers Spring Fling Gift Exchange

In the super cool, super awesome, super AMAZING FB group Geek Girls x Bloggers that I’m in and that I LOVE, we decided to do ANOTHER gift swap after our Undercover Cupid Gift Exchange, and Danielle from From Girlie to Nerdy put it together and came up with the name Spring Fling Gift Exchange! <3

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I admit, I got kinda slack about sending out my gift… Just a lot of shit happened in my life and it kinda all turned into a GIGANTIC CLUSTERFUCK. Ugh. Thankfully, things seem to be calming down? Please Universe? Thank you? Anyway, my gift for my girlie now bought and on it’s way. <3

And here’s what I got!

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OMG, ISN’T IT BEAUTIFUL AND PERFECT AND JUST AMAZING AS FUCK?????!!!!!!!!!

AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!! *dies*

My Spring Fling Gifter was Heather from Prima Geek and she TOTALLY nailed it when she found this for me! I LOVE YOU HEATHER!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3

6 On 6 ~ May 2016

Sorry, this is a bit late! 😛

I’ve taken up the 6 on 6 challenge. It’s put on by Emma from Scruffy-Little Nerd Herder. It’s a photography challenge, where on the 6th day, of the every month, you post geeky related things (or things that you geek out about or really love or that are about you and who you are) that correspond to a color that is assigned to that particular month.

It’s meant to improve your photography skills over time, but I’m just taking it as a fun thing to do, though it really IS meant to be the BEST photo you can POSSIBLY take, and I WILL do my best to take the BEST photos that I can for each month.

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This Month’s Prompt: Green

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    My Lord of the Rings leaf brooch. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
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    My Lady Loki Casual Cosplay/Everyday Cosplay Hair Bow that goes onto a headband. <3 
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    My glitter green Julie Newmar Catwoman Funko Pop! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
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    My autographed version of the last Sookie Stackhouse novel by Charlaine Harris. <3 <3
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    My dragonfly brooch. Because dragonflies are my spirit animal. <3 <3 <3 <3
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    My Gotham City Sirens graphic novel. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

CaptureYour365: March 2016

I took up the daily photography challenge CaptureYour365 for the duration of 2016. Each day, you take a picture based off a prompt that you are given.

I have to warn you, some of these pictures weren’t taken on the days that they are next to, but they ARE taken according to their prompt. I was just slack a lot of last month because of emotional fall-out due to the break-up, so fell behind and had to play catch up.

So, without further ado, here is March’s CY365! Check out the photos on my Instagram for the descriptions and hashtags! <3 <3 <3 <3

  1. Spire
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  2. Focused
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  3. Purpose
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  4. Celebrate
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  5. In The Morning
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  6. Ordinary/Self Portrait
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  7. In The Mirror
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  8. Wearing A Favorite
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  9. What I Eat
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  10. What I’m Reading
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  11. Where I Stand
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  12. Familiar
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  13. Emerald
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  14. In a Field of Green
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  15. From Above
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  16. Contrast
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  17. A Shamrock
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  18. Silly
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  19. Vast
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  20. Shutter Speed
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  21. Healthy
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  22. Night Lights
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  23. Your Muse
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  24. Suspended
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  25. In Motion
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  26. Branches
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  27. Depth of Field
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  28. Vintage
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  29. High Key
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  30. Wide
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  31. Asymmetrical
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And that’s March! I’ll get April up soon too! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Monthly Goals: May 2016

This is the May Monthly Goals Link-Up, a link-up hosted by My So-Called Chaos and A Peek At Karen’s World, where you post your goals for the month on the first of every month (and if you posted goals for the previous month, you post how you did regarding achieving those goals).

Have to play a little catch-up, as I fell behind in my blogging! 🙁

 


<3 <3 <3 Last Last Month’s Goals (March) <3 <3 <3

~~FINALLY FINISH PAYING KAYLY
~~FINALLY SHIP OFF WINNER’S PRIZE
~~Pay Diedre for oil painting
~~Pay Diedre for drawing for Sarah
~~GO SEE STAR WARS: THE FORCE AWAKENS WITH ERIC DRESSED ALL PRETTY
~~Finish purging my clothes FINALLY
~~REALLY figure out what to do about health insurance
~~Buy Pepi’s book in print form, lolz!
~~Write at least 4 posts on SATHC (0/4)
~~Finish Zorro by Isabel Allende
~~Finish Mint Juleps, Mayhem, And Murder by Sara Rosett
~~Read The Emotional Lives of Animals by Marc Bekoff
~~Get caught up journaling
~~Lose more weight and keep it off
~~Get my depo shot
~~Finish the Valentines I need to make and send them off
~~See Gods of Egypt
~~Get my hair cut
~~GET FUCKING BETTER FROM BEING SICK


<3 <3 <3 What I Achieved This Past Month (March) <3 <3 <3

~~Kept up with CaptureYour365
~~Got my hair cut with my stylist again and we did more detail with the style this time
~~Made dinner all by myself once, and helped make dinner as a team with my mom/sister three times
~~Finally let Eric go, because he broke up with me, and I realized he’s not what I need or want, and it’s because it’s what he asked of me
~~Bought a gift for my AKF Gift Exchange person
~~Put together Wonder Woman Geekbounding outfit
~~Bought cosplay items for my Vivian Lake sexy cosplay for when I go to Con
~~REACHED 175 LBS!!!!!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3

<3 <3 <3 What I Achieved This Past Month (April) <3 <3 <3

~~Kept up with CY365
~~Wrote a few songs (so started writing music again)
~~Started talking to Ryan (an old “friend”) again
~~Made a better friendship with Kenny (another friend)
~~Started singing again and realized my voice is strong and just as good, if not better, than it used to be
~~Started listening to music again regularly, like, ALL THE TIME!!! <3 <3 <3
~~Someone who dropped me from their life unexpectedly just as unexpectedly re-added me back to it
~~Got a free Anti Possession temp tattoo that I can use for my Femme Dean Cosplay
~~Caught up with my really good friend Jenn and she totally gets me and is just so awesome
~~Got a wonderful surprise gift from Abby, in the form of Posh samples and a handcrafted necklace from her that is absolutely beautiful (and expensive) and specially made for me
~~Ordered a shirt with a shirtless Jensen on it <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
~~Ordered a “Hunter in Training” tank-top for me to wear while working out to motivate me
~~Ordered two other Dean Winchester related shirts
~~Ordered a FABULOUS “Winchester plaid” dress for when I go to Con and also for just Geekbounding
~~Ordered two maxi dresses from an online retailer that are GORGEOUS
~~Bought an ENTIRE outfit from local stores for an occasion I have coming up and also ordered a gift for said occasion and put together some other stuff for the gift for said occasion
~~Discovering parts of myself that I didn’t know and learning to love them, or re-discovering them and instead of hating them, learning to embrace them and love them


<3 <3 <3 This Month’s Goals <3 <3 <3

~~Get back into the swing of things with blogging
~~Read/finish a book
~~Get depo shot
~~Continue to lose weight and keep it off
~~FINISH PURGING CLOTHES
~~Get caught up journaling
~~Go see Batman V. Superman Geekbounding as Wonder Woman
~~FINISH VALENTINES AND SEND THEM OFF
~~Pay Diedre for oil painting
~~Pay Diedre for drawing for Sarah
~~REALLY figure out what to do about health insurance
~~Buy Pepi’s book in print form, lolz!
~~Write at least 4 posts on SATHC (0/4)
~~Finish Zorro by Isabel Allende
~~Finish Mint Juleps, Mayhem, And Murder by Sara Rosett
~~Read The Emotional Lives of Animals by Marc Bekoff


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You “Slay” Me

So, for my return post to the blogging world (WELCOME ME BACK, BITCHES!!!!! 😀 ), I’ve  decided to write about a show I’ve just newly started watching thanks to a friend who has just gotten me addicted to it by letting me binge watch it over at his place.

BUFFY THE FUCKING VAMPIRE SLAYER.

Yeppers. I had never ever seen it before. I HAD seen the series Angel. But never Buffy. Not even the movie. Still haven’t seen the movie. But began watching the series.

And I LOVEZ IT SO MUCH!!!!

For the time period it was filmed in, it’s pretty damn kick ass. Not to mention the fact that it involves women and the main character is a kick-ass, take no prisoners, badass female. 🙂 Though I don’t believe she’s “16” for TWO SECONDS. Haha.

I’m just really loving this show! And I can’t WAIT to watch more of it when I hang out with my friend next! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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Brave New World

So I’m in this extremely difficult and awkward phase in my life right now. I’ve just been dumped (for realises this time) by the boy I was with since I was 16 years old, who I spent 12 years of my life giving my everything too: heart, mind, body, and soul. I loved him with everything I had. And he abused me. And I knew it. I just made excuses for it, blamed myself for “being crazy” and “deserving it” for “not being good enough”. I was stupid. He used me, he played me, he made a fool out of me for 12 years. TWELVE FUCKING YEARS. And he never TRULY cared about me or loved me. Honestly, I don’t think he knows how to love.

And I’m off my bipolar med because I have no health insurance and we can’t afford to pay for it out of pocket. And I’m off my birth control shot which helped regulate my mood swings as well.

I go from being a devastated wreck, hurt and broken and torn to shreds, to this angry, warrior, fierce, survivor woman who doesn’t need that loser in my life and am SO GLAD my eyes have been opened to what he truly was and is and being SO GLAD that I’m finally free of him and the hurt and pain and heartache he was always causing me even though he said he loved me.

My emotions are like a fucking roller coaster ride of EPIC PROPORTIONS and I feel like I’m going to hurl from how violently the twists and turns keep coming. I can sense a breakdown is on the horizon. I can tell that most of those positive feelings are because I’m going into extreme mania to combat the extreme depression that’s fighting to take a hold of me. And when those two go to war, the end result is NOT pretty. NOT AT ALL. DESTRUCTION EVERYWHERE.

Sigh.

I miss the guy I thought he was, the good memories, the good times. I can’t lie about that. But now I have an opportunity I never had before… I get to explore WHO I REALLY AM outside of him and our relationship, which has defined me since I was 16, as an adult, and REALLY find myself and become who I want to be.

I’m just taking it a day at a time, or at least I’m trying to. I’m so overwhelmed by everything going on inside me I don’t even know what to do with myself half the time. I’m just trying to deal, as best I can, with all of it.

I’ll try to get back to posting regularly as soon as I can. <3

Funko Friday!

Funko Friday is a weekly blogging prompt with it’s own blog (Funko Fridays) run by Kimi and Pepi, two of my awesome-sauce friends, about Funkos. Each week is a different theme.

This week’s theme: Show & Tell

This is the second Harley Quinn that I got for my birthday. <3 <3 <3 <3

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I lovez her! She’s so much fun! <3 <3 <3 <3
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CaptureYour365: February 2016

I took up the daily photography challenge CaptureYour365 for the duration of 2016. Each day, you take a picture based off a prompt that you are given.

I have to warn you, some of these pictures weren’t taken on the days that they are next to, but they ARE taken according to their prompt. I was just sick a lot of last month, so fell behind a bit a few times and had to play catch up those few times.

So, without further ado, here is February’s CY365! Check out the photos on my Instagram for the descriptions and hashtags! <3 <3 <3 <3

  1. Frosty
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  2. Folded
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  3. Coarse
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  4. Rocky
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  5. Silky Soft
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  6. Dual
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  7. Details/Self Portrait
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  8. Discover
    feb8
  9. Pieces
    feb9
  10. Daily Scene
    feb10
  11. A Dreaded Task
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  12. Where I Stand
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  13. Clutter
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  14. Red
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  15. Heart
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  16. Striking
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  17. Bundled Up
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  18. Blazing
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  19. Cover
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  20. Starts with R
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  21. Aperture
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  22. Rest
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  23. Supplies
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  24. Centered
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  25. Motion
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  26. From The Top
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  27. Over
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  28. Together
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  29. Bonus
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And ta-da!!!! That’s February!!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3